What a whirlwind this past year has been for me, too many life-changing events cramped in 12 months. It happened too fast, before I know it, its 2013 and I am to face another battle yet again..
This is my time to keep track on the things that matter, a way to evaluate what I have done and filter the factors that contributed to what and where I am now.
Its a month of anticipation and preparation for the wedding. My sister got married March 2012, and the whole hoopla of wedding plans happened this month given only a 3-month preparation period.
I was able to share a part of my February in this post but the highlight of it all is our GenSan homecoming. It was an untimely coming home trip, but a necessity. After staying nine months in Dubai, I longed for GenSan enough that 15 days was at all unsatisfying.
March 8 was the wedding and we had to fly back to Dubai the day after. Yes, the days went by pretty fast, as if I only breathe GenSan air and left. I regretted that I haven’t spent those 15 days with quality knowing that GenSan-Dubai ain’t a bus ride distance.
Enough of regrets though, what is important is that we had accomplished our goal to be there and I was able to spend majority of my stay with family.
These months happened in a blur. I went back with my daily routine of home and work, and rest and spend time with friends on weekends. What was oblivious to me or rather I tend to not take heed is the wonderful miracle of life being developed in my sister’s womb.
This month for me was a roller coaster! I spent the rest of my 15 days leave from work during the days of September because 1. its my sister’s EDC and 2. I had to take my DHA exam for nurses.
Alnette Leizyn Anosa is an angel sent from heaven. All the weariness, stress and problems I had that month were wiped out as I got hold of her fragile body. From then on, everything is about her. I passed my exam by the way which was really fortunate.
It’s my birthday month and I felt extra special these days. I had to take care of my niece as my sister is restoring her health from a CS. I was first hand in taking care of my little angel and it was worth spending my time with despite all the stresses I went through the past month.
A twist of fate happened in my job that I was bound for a department transfer. I started training for that new position in the department and it was exciting. Challenges sure trigger the joy hormones in me.The mundane task I was doing for almost a year and a half at my work is about to change….. or not.
At this time, I had to take one of the biggest decisions in my life by far. A choice I had to make between passion and profession. It was tough, I tell you, I was in the verge of relying everything to fate, and be irrational on matters; waiting for signs, heeding to signals, etc. However, being the over-thinker that I am, I had come to let practicality and ambition govern my decision.
I had to leave an ideal job for me to practice what I studied for. So, I resigned. Thinking about the future, I grabbed the opportunity for me to gain nursing experience. It was difficult, but something has to be done.
Being the most festive month of the year, the joy that December brought to me is still the same despite having no work at that moment. I got to spend the first weeks of the month with my niece, and on December 22, 2012, I started my first day at work in NSH as a nurse.
2012 was a good year for me. I made a whole lot of mistakes, but it made me learn and grow. For 2013, I quote my good friend V’s anthem.
The Year of Free Falling
Let me call this The Year of Free Falling.
This is the year to start again. The year of second chances. The year to try.
This is the year of no mistakes. The year to acknowledge failure and move past it, like every other screwed up human being who needs to move on.
This is the year of travel. The year of discovery. The year of adventure.
This is the year I open my front door and greet myself at the doorstep.
This is the year I learn to live on less. Live on what I need. Live.
This is the year I pick the places I don’t walk away from.
This is the year of more time.
This is the year to make everything ordinary too beautiful to bear.