simply_cyndale

seeing beauty in the simplest of things

In Summary

What a whirlwind this past year has been for me, too many life-changing events cramped in 12 months. It happened too fast, before I know it, its 2013 and I am to face another battle yet again..

This is my time to keep track on the things that matter, a way to evaluate what I have done and filter the factors that contributed to what and where I am now.

January

Its a month of anticipation and preparation for the wedding. My sister got married March 2012, and the whole hoopla of wedding plans happened this month given only a 3-month preparation period. 

February

I was able to share a part of my February in this post but the highlight of it all is our GenSan homecoming. It was an untimely coming home trip, but a necessity. After staying nine months in Dubai, I longed for GenSan enough that 15 days was at all unsatisfying.

March 

March 8 was the wedding and we had to fly back to Dubai the day after. Yes, the days went by pretty fast, as if I only breathe GenSan air and left. I regretted that I haven’t spent those 15 days with quality knowing that GenSan-Dubai ain’t a bus ride distance. 

Enough of regrets though, what is important is that we had accomplished our goal to be there and I was able to spend majority of my stay with family. 

April-May-June-July-August

These months happened in a blur. I went back with my daily routine of home and work, and rest and spend time with friends on weekends. What was oblivious to me or rather I tend to not take heed is the wonderful miracle of life being developed in my sister’s womb. 

September

This month for me was a roller coaster! I spent the rest of my 15 days leave from work during the days of September because 1. its my sister’s EDC and 2. I had to take my DHA exam for nurses. 

Alnette Leizyn Anosa is an angel sent from heaven. All the weariness, stress and problems I had that month were wiped out as I got hold of her fragile body. From then on, everything is about her. I passed my exam by the way which was really fortunate. 

October

It’s my birthday month and I felt extra special these days. I had to take care of my niece as my sister is restoring her health from a CS. I was first hand in taking care of my little angel and it was worth spending my time with despite all the stresses I went through the past month. 

A twist of fate happened in my job that I was bound for a department transfer. I started training  for that new position in the department and it was exciting. Challenges sure trigger the joy hormones in me.The mundane task I was doing for almost a year and a half at my work is about to change….. or not. 

November

At this time, I had to take one of the biggest decisions in my life by far. A choice I had to make between passion and profession. It was tough, I tell you, I was in the verge of relying everything to fate, and be irrational on matters; waiting for signs, heeding to signals, etc. However, being the over-thinker that I am, I had come to let practicality and ambition govern my decision. 

I had to leave an ideal job for me to practice what I studied for. So, I resigned. Thinking about the future, I grabbed the opportunity for me to gain nursing experience. It was difficult, but something has to be done. 

December

Being the most festive month of the year, the joy that December brought to me is still the same despite having no work at that moment. I got to spend the first weeks of the month with my niece, and on December 22, 2012, I started my first day at work in NSH as a nurse. 

2012 was a good year for me. I made a whole lot of mistakes, but it made me learn and grow. For 2013, I quote my good friend V’s anthem. 

The Year of Free Falling

Let me call this The Year of Free Falling.

This is the year to start again. The year of second chances. The year to try.

This is the year of no mistakes. The year to acknowledge failure and move past it, like every other screwed up human being who needs to move on.

This is the year of travel. The year of discovery. The year of adventure.

This is the year I open my front door and greet myself at the doorstep.

This is the year I learn to live on less. Live on what I need. Live.

This is the year I pick the places I don’t walk away from.

This is the year of more time.

This is the year to make everything ordinary too beautiful to bear.

MAMA

remembered that fateful day?

it was in late October afternoon..

were you awake then or was sedated?

i bet the latter coz it was a C section.

six years you waited, until i came to you..

I was the trouble child, who knew?

I was sickly, and stubborn, compared to my sibs,

but you never made me feel differently

in fact, i was spoiled, you and papa see to it

you cuddle and caress me as i throw a fit

you never made me feel less loved despite my oddness.

haha! i admit though, i gave quite the headache.

blame it to science, second child syndrome they call it.

just joking.. my stubbornness comes naturally, 

they say, its from papa, they say its from you

but despite it, you loved me unconditionally.

coz moms are like that, they are just amazing, 

their love to their children is pure and unselfish

i felt it that’s why i know all this,

coz having the mama i have, i may be the luckiest.

you understood every bit of me, even i didn’t say a word

you made us, your children, your whole world

you know when im heartbroken and happy,

when i’m pissed or bothered, you comfort me.

you were selfless and understanding, 

even if it meant to be bending through some of your principles

you always, always think of whats best for us first,

even forgetting and disregarding yours…

actually, words aren’t enough to tell how awesome you are

the epitome of what a woman should be, a loving wife and a model mother

i really hope, as of the moment i am making you proud,

because mama, i swear i’ll be successful for you

ill be everything that you would want me to be…. 

HAPPY MOTHERS’ DAY MA! I love you. 

only some of the memories I have.. let us continue to make more memories like these.. *too bad i deleted most of our pictures together.. :(

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Valentine’s Day.. 

As mainstream as it is, I’m gonna blog about this day, because, 1. It is one of my favorite days of the year, and 2. What I thought was ordinary for me, turned out really special.

I’ve always been a fan of this date. Obviously, a self proclaimed hopeless romantic here. So ever since I’ve discovered what this day was all about, I celebrated it. Way back in elementary, I never missed a single valentine card for my mama… and then, when I discovered (ahem) puppy love, ahaha! don’t guess what age that was, I stopped my mama card. And given that when its this date, I always see my papa scampering for either flowers or cake for mama, and also my brother buying sweet stuff for us, Valentines has always been this special for me. 

I had my fair share of Valentine moments too.. Had the romantic dinner date, flowers, chocolates were never new to me. But, every time, I feel that special kilig, may it be through grand gestures or simple giving. 

However, this year, I thought it would be different, I set up my mind for that. As I’ve read somewhere (9gag or twitter), “they say its valentines, for me its Tuesday” well, i share the same sentiment, because, its a work day, and being miles apart from home, who would i expect to give me or do something special for me? No, I’m not bitter or anything, I just knew that this time it will be different.

I said it too soon though, because, my idea of a Valentine’s day seemed to weave its way into becoming a reality today. Because somehow, I didn’t feel that this was just an ordinary Tuesday for me. 

Early on, as I was taking my 45 minute metro ride to work; feeling extra elated and cheerful, I BBMed special contacts and spread positive greetings to them, just returning the loads of greeting I also received from fb contacts. I was off to a good start. 

My morning routine usually involves a sandwich while walking and coffee in the office after. Coffee which I make myself, not 3 in 1. So, me and my NSG friends spared ourselves with that, and decided to celebrate with a pricy coffee this morning. Costa it is then… morning greeting and all, we were all surprised to see a long-stem red rose waiting for us on our desks… And bigger smiles after. FLOWERS - check… its from our very thoughtful boss. Then a few minutes after, a piece of Patchi chocolate was distributed, from our admin, Ms. Zy. CHOCOLATES - check. 

My Valentine’s wasn’t dull after all.. All through the day, I was just plain happy, carrying with me the spirit of today’s celebration. I was able to chat with my mama, and found out unsurprisingly that well, she received flowers from my papa and they had a dinner date. I was able to talk to the the only voice I was longing to hear at lunch which I’m gonna blog about separately. Half day, and I felt satisfied already.

That didn’t end there though, because apparently, like some cruel trick fate has played unto us, we experienced some difficulties on our way home. Rode a dysfunctional train, so opted for a dreadful bus ride. Enough said, it was disappointing. 

But my hour delay didn’t stop me from getting all giddy about going home. Because even though my love life doesn’t exist here in UAE doesn’t mean my love life doesn’t exist at all. 

Got online, and surprise surprise, I got my vday special after all…

I started today as Tuesday, but ended up as VALENTINE’S Day. <3

3rd night in a row of partying.. Of going home late either tipsy or tired.. No not drunk, just tipsy as this place never really tolerate goin home wobly and intoxicated, yes, a whooping amount of fine will slap you when you get caught. Such hipocracy in this country. Anyway, I have been making the most of my holidays and its been fun, fun, fun. Then again, at times like these i am saddened even more bacause, these are the moments when i compare. Compare what i used to experience back home. Compare how fun it would have been when im in gensan. Venue wise its a whole different world out here, just earlier we were in this bar called baratsi; boy it was awesome there, the partying i see on tv with a crowd of white and big people, by the beach and amazing view of the horiZon. No, gensan couldnt offer such a magnificent ambience at all, but then again, its the partying part that i come to know which i favor most. Haha! I mean, in a crowd like that, in gensan id expect a fist, bottle, or table fight to break in. I swear, sometimes we even anticipate it happening every time. No, its never like that in here; despite a very tight dancefloor and not to mention the odor, i dunno how others can last, there was never a fight. Well, i may not have attented all the parties there is, but i never heard or read a story about that; fist fights, riots, the like. Well, despite that fact i still prefer partyin in gensan, where you can dance and go wild with people you actually know and laugh about it the next day. An then theres the expence. Seriously, i can party all i want with only a 20 peso bill in my pocket. Here, you badly need cash to enjoy the night, unless, you have some rich friend to treat you..obviously, i miss home, i miss gensan in several more ways than the partyin. Glad days gone by so fast.. :) see you real soon gensan party people!!

Xe pag weekend ayoko matulog ng maaga. Ang daming nasa isip ko&#8230; :) nkakasmile ako ngaun, hindi peke yan hah.. Genuine smile. Minsan xe ang mga tao, nakasmile nlang para hindi na matanong ang kanilang tunay na nafeefeel.. Ako mahilig magsmile, ang tapang xe ng mukha ko, pag walang ngiti, nakakatakot daw ako lapitan. Hahaha!! Lageh yan, kunwari may activity na you need to say your first impression about a certain person&#8222; sakin walang mintis. Maldita. Suplada. Matapang. Intimidating. Well, at first im offended.. But then, i got used to it. I swear, its the same description everytime all the time. Ahaha! Seriously though, hindi naman ako hard to approach eh, nakakagaan nga ng feeling ung in the long run&#8222; narerealize ng tao na im really not that scary. Promise. Friendliest person alive ako. Hahahahahahaha! Ganito lang. Hindi ako plastic. Ayun, may times naman xe na you meet people you dont really like dba? Haha! Minsan it shows tlga. Anyway, back to this smile.. Hindi naman ako mahirap pangitiin, ang babaw nga ng kaligayahan ko eh.. However for the past few months, its been really tough. Hindi naman xe tlga madali to have such a totally different life, especially when you need to adjust big time. Hahay, its almost half a year now, but this new life i am having continues to be a stranger to me. Mahirap talaga, to describe it in one word. Pero, looking on its brighter side, napapaisip na lang ako how i can easily reach my desires through living here. So, aun, napapasmile pa din ako. :) tapos i love to surround myself with happy people, lalo na ung funny. Super turn on sken ang jokers nga eh. :) ahem. Tapos pag ako tumawa, ang comment saken, either nakakawalang respeto daw (hindi at all pademure ang tawa ko) or nkakahawa, hindi na sila natatawa sa joke.. Sa tawa ko nalang daw. Basta gusto ko yan. Just keep on laughing, until no sound come out of my mouth.. Buti nlang ganyan ang company ko dito kung hindi, naku ewan ko nlang. Thankful nko sobra dun.. Actually, madami talaga akong things to thank for.. Ang mga bagay na feeling ko, hindi ko naman deserve. Teka back to that first impression. Maldita nga daw ako. Well, thats not entirely a lie though, i mean, i can be very mean sometimes, ahahaha!! Pero promise, i am not unfriendly. Kaya ayun, minsan nga sa pagiging mean ko, hindi ko tlga deserve ung mga bagay na meron ako ngaun&#8230; Pero, ang life, balance lang din. Xe, nakukuha ko mga gusto ko, ang katumbas ay downhill na isang parte ng life. Haha! Obvious na kung ano at ayaw ko ng iemphasize. Hindi naman ako nagmamadali bout that though.. I learned to be patient eventually. I said eventually xe dati im not. I get out of a relationship i jump to another just like a snap. Hahaha! So, childish i know, its not that i long for love, my family gives more than enough of that thank you. Ano lang dati, gusto ko lang ung feeling na may kasama. Masaya xe un. Pero ngaun, i realize na hindi naman kelangan na boyfriend tlga ang kasama mo, thankful din ako na i met super friends that can give me the companionship i needed.. Basta uie, i know my life rocks and its pretty awesome kaya nga napapasmile ako ng ganito. Hahahaha! Dami ko pang sinasabi. Inaantok na tuloy ako.. Mabuti. Just gonna finish this really disturbing movie im watching and im off to hit the sack. Nytie!!!

Xe pag weekend ayoko matulog ng maaga. Ang daming nasa isip ko… :) nkakasmile ako ngaun, hindi peke yan hah.. Genuine smile. Minsan xe ang mga tao, nakasmile nlang para hindi na matanong ang kanilang tunay na nafeefeel.. Ako mahilig magsmile, ang tapang xe ng mukha ko, pag walang ngiti, nakakatakot daw ako lapitan. Hahaha!! Lageh yan, kunwari may activity na you need to say your first impression about a certain person„ sakin walang mintis. Maldita. Suplada. Matapang. Intimidating. Well, at first im offended.. But then, i got used to it. I swear, its the same description everytime all the time. Ahaha! Seriously though, hindi naman ako hard to approach eh, nakakagaan nga ng feeling ung in the long run„ narerealize ng tao na im really not that scary. Promise. Friendliest person alive ako. Hahahahahahaha! Ganito lang. Hindi ako plastic. Ayun, may times naman xe na you meet people you dont really like dba? Haha! Minsan it shows tlga. Anyway, back to this smile.. Hindi naman ako mahirap pangitiin, ang babaw nga ng kaligayahan ko eh.. However for the past few months, its been really tough. Hindi naman xe tlga madali to have such a totally different life, especially when you need to adjust big time. Hahay, its almost half a year now, but this new life i am having continues to be a stranger to me. Mahirap talaga, to describe it in one word. Pero, looking on its brighter side, napapaisip na lang ako how i can easily reach my desires through living here. So, aun, napapasmile pa din ako. :) tapos i love to surround myself with happy people, lalo na ung funny. Super turn on sken ang jokers nga eh. :) ahem. Tapos pag ako tumawa, ang comment saken, either nakakawalang respeto daw (hindi at all pademure ang tawa ko) or nkakahawa, hindi na sila natatawa sa joke.. Sa tawa ko nalang daw. Basta gusto ko yan. Just keep on laughing, until no sound come out of my mouth.. Buti nlang ganyan ang company ko dito kung hindi, naku ewan ko nlang. Thankful nko sobra dun.. Actually, madami talaga akong things to thank for.. Ang mga bagay na feeling ko, hindi ko naman deserve. Teka back to that first impression. Maldita nga daw ako. Well, thats not entirely a lie though, i mean, i can be very mean sometimes, ahahaha!! Pero promise, i am not unfriendly. Kaya ayun, minsan nga sa pagiging mean ko, hindi ko tlga deserve ung mga bagay na meron ako ngaun… Pero, ang life, balance lang din. Xe, nakukuha ko mga gusto ko, ang katumbas ay downhill na isang parte ng life. Haha! Obvious na kung ano at ayaw ko ng iemphasize. Hindi naman ako nagmamadali bout that though.. I learned to be patient eventually. I said eventually xe dati im not. I get out of a relationship i jump to another just like a snap. Hahaha! So, childish i know, its not that i long for love, my family gives more than enough of that thank you. Ano lang dati, gusto ko lang ung feeling na may kasama. Masaya xe un. Pero ngaun, i realize na hindi naman kelangan na boyfriend tlga ang kasama mo, thankful din ako na i met super friends that can give me the companionship i needed.. Basta uie, i know my life rocks and its pretty awesome kaya nga napapasmile ako ng ganito. Hahahaha! Dami ko pang sinasabi. Inaantok na tuloy ako.. Mabuti. Just gonna finish this really disturbing movie im watching and im off to hit the sack. Nytie!!!

Kay ako way mahimo.

Wow lang.. :) first time to use tumblr in this itouch. I miss blogging.. Its been quite a while coz, my lappy is busted. And tinatamad ako, i mean, when i have this free time id rather spend it resting or music….. Been to music lately.. Which is quite weird co i never qas the music lovin type. Haha!! Maybe bacause im using this awesome headphones. Hahaha! Nagyayabang lang. Anyway. Aun ng, namiss ko ang writing. Eto xa ngaun, some mind farts lang. I just want to blab about whats in my mind lately, so pardon the spell lapses, touch typing is not that convenient.. :). Hmmm.. Whats been happening to me?? Eto.. Office, bahay, office, bahay, office, bahay… Interesting sobra noh? Grabeh lang. Pucha i miss gensn so mich, i kinda ignore the feeling anymore.. Alam mo un, ung feeling nah sobrng umaapaw na ing pakiramdam, namamanhid ka nalang. Teka nga, bakit ba ako nagttagalog. Hahaha! Sa office, super tagalog ako, tsk2 minsan natitwist ang dila, lumalabas pagkabisaya. Pero, sa bahay naman tagalog kami, friends ko naman tagalog din. Minsan nga, nagfeefeeling at umeenglish. Dito xe sa flat, bisaya mga tao. Haha! O dba? The dillema. Sakit sa dila. Ok, shift nah.. Hahaha! So, atura. Wala na kau koy interesting na maingon kat sa tinuod lang, wala na may interesting nga nahitabosa akong kinabuhi. Kung naa man, dilu xa pede iingon sa publuc., i_pm ko kung feel nimu makichismis. Hahahahaha! Nalingaw hinuon ko ani, mura kog nagyabo sa tanan nako nga ginahunahuna. Lately, my super frienda have been very active on blogging, my bestdriend nga is a very promising fashion blogger, inggit ako, but nakikinita ko na, soon, they’ll be recogniZed with their work. If only i can figure out how to post a link here. Sorry, nabubundok ako. Hahaha! Kung sa bisaya pa, manol bah! :D basta3 support mindanao bloggers. Aun, ang daming nasa utak ko„„ gusto ko din maging active blogger, want to share the beauty where i am.. Whats going on here in dubai. Yes. Dba? Interesting??? Sana.. :) soon soon soon.. Emcourage me more. Hahahaha!!! I mean, i need inspiration. :) basta2, hulata lang guise.. Okay, officially now, im gonna make this tumblr of mine be a babbling point. U can read straight from my mind here. No edits or hesitations to make my post nice or aomething. Wala lang. Raw and direct. Whew! That was nice. :) next time ulit. Nuff for now.., :D

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